The Old Me

What can I say about life now? It is not always the way you want it to be right? Like in my blog tag. But I am grateful with the life, family and friends that god bestowed to be around me. They serve as a pillar of strength for me and hold me up when I feel down. And now, I am back with the old me!! The ME that my friends like not the ME that I have been lately. I am recovering well from the emotion. I really treasure the lesson that I learned within one month of my relationship and I hold no hard feelings to anyone even to her. When God says so, so it will happen! I thank her for the lessons and for being with me even for a short while. I hope that I did bring even a small sparkle of joy to her and only God knows how sincere I am when I am with her. Whatever the thing is now, I take it as something that I can learn from may may God gives me strength to shove in the journey of my life.

Heals my Heart

I do not feel entirely good today after I called Mom this evening. It always happen that everyime I called her and I am in a happy mood but she is not. That will switch my mood immediately. I called her this evening just to know that she is not feeling very well. My heart is not at ease now. I am just pretending to be me like normal day but deep inside my little soul is crying to be comforted. I just hope that God will grant her speedy recovery. Was it a punishment for me for the things that I have done wrong? I know that I sinned a lot but forgive me for I am trying to be a better person day by day. I am just a normal human being subject to humanly mistakes due to lack of spiritual supplications.



May Allah heals her health
May Allah heals my heart...

Don't act as if you know the world

Sometimes we assume that we know everything in this world making everyone around is wrong. How presumptuos can we be. I hate people who act as if they know the world. They think that they are right all the time irrespective of other people's feelings. I do understand that we human being tends to get emotional at times and will use anyone around us as subjects to lash out words. However, I cannot tolerate people who assume they have enough knowledge to rejects other people's point of view.



We are ever forgetful and sometimes we even forget that we forget. It is helpful to think hard before we say something to not to hurt someone. We do accidental silly mistakes making us susceptible to hurting someone's feelings. We often do not realise how much we have hurt our friends or lover and I say this to myself. I learn to accept poeple (slowly!) the way they are and I begin to see things from different perspectives. It helps sometimes just to make do with what we have around us and savour the essence of it. I believe that God created something for a reason as I mentioned many times in my previous posts. Whatever it is I hope I can accept people they way they are even though they act as though they know everything in this whole bloody wide world!

10 Things I Hate About You

I hate the way you look at me and the way you cut your hair

I hate the way you message me

I hate it when you stare



I hate your cute little sparkling lips and the way you read my mind

I hate you so much that makes me sick that even makes me rhyme

I hate the way you always right

I hate it when you are shy



I hate it when you make me laugh even worse when you make me cry

I hate it when you are not around and the fact you didn't answer my call



But mostly...

I hate the way I don't hate you

Not even close

Not even a little bit

Not even at all

**How can I hate her when my love transcends my hatred.