I Wonder

I wonder why most of the time when we ask for something, the thing that we ask just do not materialise or happen they way we want it to be. Are we too impatient to wait for the right time for it to happen? Or simply it will not happen for our own good because god has a better plan for us? More often than not most of the time the things that happen around us are the things that we do not expect it to happen. Is it part of worldly miracles or surprises that make us joyful or depress for the time being? All that we seek in life is the sense of impermanence in happiness. Pleasure is something that always happens to us but it doesn’t stay there long enough to enable us to feel the true essence of happiness. All that we seek in life is happiness and true happiness does not happen until we look for it and begin to search and appreciate the things around you.


I wonder why sometimes we are very forgetful. We may have hurt someone’s feelings without realising it. But when we do realise it, we try to amend it but it so happen that we forget to say sorry to the person that we hurt. Worse, we realise that we have hurt his or her feeling but do not try to improve on it. Human beings are always forgetful. Is it the underlying nature of us since Adam? The beauty of saying sorry is that you have realised your mistakes and try to mend the heart of the person that you hurt. The person may not forgive you but at least you have done your part. We are sometimes very arrogant people to think that we are right all the time and refuse to listen to others because it will make you feel inferior. We need to stoop down a little and learn from all the small petty things around us because the gist of life lies between the thing that we think trivial and of least significance.

I wonder why the world can be so unfair sometimes. Why the poor has to suffer because they are poor. Why the 85% of world’s wealth are only enjoyed by 20% of global population. It is quite strange sometimes to think that the superpower can do whatever they want to oppress the weak and the world around us are cringing like a mouse afraid to voice out just because they are scared. They are scared to do the right thing because fairness is not longer defined by the prevalence of justice. Fairness is now the notion of the accumulation of wealth and satisfaction of greed by the strong forces regardless of the rights of the weak. They think that they are morally right and they carry the burden of the poor which make them think that they have the responsibilities of end this. The opposite happens. More damaged was done. Equality no longer fairly defined. What is equal to them is when they can enjoy the wealth of the other nation but do not want to share their own wealth.

I wonder why we can be so naïve to think that we don’t have what we want. Desires dictate our behaviour. Human nature is such that we are always not satisfied of what we have. We tend to look to someone higher than us and thus try to reach the same level. It does motivate us in a way but the sense of gratitude should also present.

* 9.06pm, 1st July 2004