Let's talk about me

It has been quite sometimes after I last updated my blog. Gosh... this sentence seems to always be the opening for my entry. Been 'quite' busy or 'pretended' busy(but frankly very busy!) recently with my academic stuff. In my final year now and loaking towards graduation soon. Hmm... not really looking forward though. I kinda love uni life. Relax and no pressure except from assignments and exams that I can handle pretty well.

Right now busy working on my thesis about CFD simulation of piggyback pipeline. A lot of hiccups along the way but somehow I manage to cope with them. Still hoping that my results will turn out well. Been spending my day in the lab everyday. I have shit loads of stuff to do for the next one month; seminars, project, thesis write-up, MASCA NCG in Sydney etc.



Life kinda the same for me without any new things happening. It is just flat and mundane. I have been reading other people's blog (random people that I do not know) lately and really enjoy what they have got to say. They know how to enjoy life in their own ways. Quiet surprise also that some random people did actually made a link to my blog. I do not know why they want to do that. My blog is way more boring and nothing that you can read that make you laugh or cry or whatever the feeling is. Just plain. It is just for my own pleasure. Besides, no one fills my tag board yet and I do not expect anyone to do that too.

Talking about future plan, I did plan to stay and work here. Not so much for thr money but more for the life that I live here. It is serene and beautifully boring here. Probably Perth is the best city if you want to settle down after retirement. Trying to negotiate the job offer with JP Kenny and hopefully I will get it. Working hard with the project to impress them. Planning for PR and sincerely hope that Australian government will grant it. I am going to pay back my loan and not just going to walk away like that. I know my obligations. Well, that is just what I had in mind at the moment. With God's will, I hope it will materialise.

Poems

Here are among some of the poems that I like. Been there in My Document for too long. Might as well.

Ku lari ke hutan
Kemudian teriakku
Ku lari ke pantai
Kemudian menyanyiku,
Sepi…sepi dan sendiri aku benci
Aku mau bingar…aku mau di pasar
Bosan aku dengan penat
Dan enyah saja kau pekat
Seperti berjelaga jika ku sendiri



Pecahkan saja gelasnya biar ramai
Biar mengaduh sampai gaduh
Aih…ada malaikat menyulam
Jarring laba-laba belang di tembok
Keraton putih
Kenapa tak goyangkan saja locengnya
Biar terdera
Atau aku harus lari ke pantai
Belok ke hutan

-Ada Apa Dengan Cinta



Kalau aku menjadi seekor burung.,
Akan kuhebahkan warga alam sekalian,
Bahawa Allah itu benar,
Yakinlah.

Kalau aku menjadi dedaun kering,
Akan kurebah sembahkan diriku ke bumi,
Takut akan seksa Ilahi,
Kerana aku percaya bahawa Hari Akhirat itu benar,
Bertaqwalah.

Kiranya aku menjadi cecacing tanah jengkingan lembah,
Akan kubisikkan kepada warga alam di bawah sana,
Bahawa seksa kubur itu benar,
Gentarlah.

Andainya aku menjadi sungai yang mengalir lesu,
Akan kualirkan nafasku dari banjaran ke banjaran,
Dari lembah ke lurah,
Dari hulu ke hilir,
Dari tanjung ke semenanjung,
Memberitahu para enau dan banir,
Yang syurga itu benar,
Pohonlah.

Jika aku ditakdirkan menjadi
api yang membakar keringan ranting,
Akan kuseru diriku bahawa apalah sangat aku ini,
Nun jahanam itu lebih hebat,
Sesungguhnya aku yakin,
Dan benar benar yakin bahawa neraka itu benar,
Aku insaf.

Namun,
Aku bukan burung,
Aku bukan daunan kering,
Aku bukan api,
Aku bukan sungai yang lesu mengalir,
Aku juga bukan cecacing tanah.
Aku kira aku lebih hina dan daif dari itu,
Aku hanya manusia yang penuh beban dosa timbunan noda,

Aku turut gentar,
Aku penuh yakin,
Aku juga bertaqwa,
Aku selalu insaf dan
Aku sentiasa memohon kepada Ilahi agar
kolek hidupku ini didayungkan ke destinasi yang akhirnya pasti.

-Hisham


Aku cari bukan harta bertimbun timbun
Untuk Hidup kaya
Aku cari bukan wang berjuta-juta
Untuk hidup bergaya
Aku cari bukan kawan-kawan
Untuk hidup sekadar berfoya-foya
Aku cari
Mana dia Al-Ghazali
Aku cari mana dia Al-Shafie
Kita bongkar rahsia sunnah nabi
Cari panduan
Aku hidup kerana Dia Rabbi
Dialah teman
Dialah wali
Dia mencukupi
Aku hidup bererti
Menikmati damai abadi

- Datuk Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi