Sunday, May 28, 2006
There goes another of my birthday
There goes another one of my birthday party with friends. I have nothing special to write here about that. The same thing happen evenry year with Li grumbling not wanting to go to Japanese and we went to Fast Eddy's instead for dinner. we head to Hit Studio next for 3 hours of karaoke and I really love it!! And... I did something stupid again that night! :(
Thursday, May 04, 2006
A Life Revisited
I have grown to be lazy to write here. Probably nothing interesting that happens in my life at the moment. As for now, I have been working for about 3 months here and still looking for the right tune to switch my life from this transition. I realize that when you work your desires grow and without realizing you can never earn enough. My bad! Still busy settling down over here in Perth and still have difficulties in managing in finance. Hopefully, I will get through it soon.
I am still looking to accommodate this hollow in my heart and been worrying about it for sometimes. I begin to feel the pressure of it and loneliness further solidify the feelings. Just need someone to lash out how I feel and I do not have the guts to do it yet. I was just wondering is it worth while worrying about that? It is not so much that I worry but more of a feeling-sharing thingy kinda things. Been praying really hard but still waiting for the God above to listen to me. I do not know how and why He structures my life as it is. Mundane and monotonous. Will keep on praying!
I am still looking to accommodate this hollow in my heart and been worrying about it for sometimes. I begin to feel the pressure of it and loneliness further solidify the feelings. Just need someone to lash out how I feel and I do not have the guts to do it yet. I was just wondering is it worth while worrying about that? It is not so much that I worry but more of a feeling-sharing thingy kinda things. Been praying really hard but still waiting for the God above to listen to me. I do not know how and why He structures my life as it is. Mundane and monotonous. Will keep on praying!
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
On Being Appreciated
Just an e mail from my thesis supervisor. Feel like putting it here for my own remembrance. Not always I get something from someone that appreciate what I do. This wil do then!
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Tuesday, March 14, 2006
On Being Thankful
From a forwarded e mail that I get. At second glance, this does make sense! Only need to look at from different perspective.
FOR THE WIFE
WHO SAYS IT'S HOT DOGS TONIGHT,
BECAUSE SHE IS HOME WITH ME,
AND NOT OUT WITH SOMEONE ELSE.
FOR THE HUSBAND
WHO IS ON THE SOFA
BEING A COUCH POTATO,
BECAUSE HE IS HOME WITH ME
AND NOT OUT AT THE BARS.
FOR THE TEENAGER
WHO IS COMPLAINING ABOUT DOING DISHES
BECAUSE IT MEANS SHE IS AT HOME,
NOT ON THE STREETS.
FOR THE TAXES I PAY
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I AM EMPLOYED.
FOR THE MESS TO CLEAN AFTER A PARTY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE
BEEN SURROUNDED BY FRIENDS.
FOR THE CLOTHES THAT FIT A LITTLE TOO SNUG
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I HAVE ENOUGH TO EAT.
FOR MY SHADOW THAT WATCHES ME WORK
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I AM OUT IN THE SUNSHINE.
FOR A LAWN THAT NEEDS MOWING,
WINDOWS THAT NEED CLEANING,
AND GUTTERS THAT NEED FIXING
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE A HOME.
FOR ALL THE COMPLAINING
I HEAR ABOUT THE GOVERNMENT
BECAUSE IT MEANS
WE HAVE FREEDOM OF SPEECH.
FOR THE PARKING SPOT
I FIND AT THE FAR END OF THE PARKING LOT
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM CAPABLE OF WALKING
AND I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH TRANSPORTATION.
FOR MY HUGE HEATING BILL
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I AM WARM.
FOR THE LADY BEHIND ME IN CHURCH
WHO SINGS OFF KEY BECAUSE IT MEANS
I CAN HEAR.
FOR THE PILE OF LAUNDRY AND IRONING
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I HAVE CLOTHES TO WEAR.
FOR WEARINESS AND ACHING MUSCLES
AT THE END OF THE DAY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE BEEN
CAPABLE OF WORKING HARD.
FOR THE ALARM THAT GOES OFF
IN THE EARLY MORNING HOURS
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM ALIVE.
FOR THE WIFE
WHO SAYS IT'S HOT DOGS TONIGHT,
BECAUSE SHE IS HOME WITH ME,
AND NOT OUT WITH SOMEONE ELSE.
FOR THE HUSBAND
WHO IS ON THE SOFA
BEING A COUCH POTATO,
BECAUSE HE IS HOME WITH ME
AND NOT OUT AT THE BARS.
FOR THE TEENAGER
WHO IS COMPLAINING ABOUT DOING DISHES
BECAUSE IT MEANS SHE IS AT HOME,
NOT ON THE STREETS.
FOR THE TAXES I PAY
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I AM EMPLOYED.
FOR THE MESS TO CLEAN AFTER A PARTY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE
BEEN SURROUNDED BY FRIENDS.
FOR THE CLOTHES THAT FIT A LITTLE TOO SNUG
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I HAVE ENOUGH TO EAT.
FOR MY SHADOW THAT WATCHES ME WORK
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I AM OUT IN THE SUNSHINE.
FOR A LAWN THAT NEEDS MOWING,
WINDOWS THAT NEED CLEANING,
AND GUTTERS THAT NEED FIXING
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE A HOME.
FOR ALL THE COMPLAINING
I HEAR ABOUT THE GOVERNMENT
BECAUSE IT MEANS
WE HAVE FREEDOM OF SPEECH.
FOR THE PARKING SPOT
I FIND AT THE FAR END OF THE PARKING LOT
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM CAPABLE OF WALKING
AND I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH TRANSPORTATION.
FOR MY HUGE HEATING BILL
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I AM WARM.
FOR THE LADY BEHIND ME IN CHURCH
WHO SINGS OFF KEY BECAUSE IT MEANS
I CAN HEAR.
FOR THE PILE OF LAUNDRY AND IRONING
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I HAVE CLOTHES TO WEAR.
FOR WEARINESS AND ACHING MUSCLES
AT THE END OF THE DAY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE BEEN
CAPABLE OF WORKING HARD.
FOR THE ALARM THAT GOES OFF
IN THE EARLY MORNING HOURS
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM ALIVE.
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
God's Discretion
This entry may sound cliché and typical but I am just writing what I feel right now.
GOD decides everything that happens in my life. I do not know how to describe my belief in Him right now. Definitely I believe in the power of god as I have heard, read and even witnessed it myself. I keep telling my self that when something befalls unto my life may it be a bitter or a pleasant one, there is always a reason behind it. Why do I wake up a little later this morning that usual and why I decided to wear a dark green long sleeve shirt to office today other than my usual short sleeve. Even the minute details that I do in life have a purpose. I may not see the purpose of it now, may not notice it and may not even realise why I did it. God has arranged everything. Sometimes I wonder why don’t (if god has arranged everything!) we just let my life flow as it is. Just let the wind carry me to where I belong according to god’s discretion. Therefore, I do not have to bother to go against my needs, feelings and beliefs. Then I realise that yes He decides everything but I have to inspire it myself. Whereby, I have to ponder upon my existence. Why am I being brought to this world and why am I working in Perth and not back home. Ultimately, I realise that whatever happen in my life was inspired or planned by me but decided by Him. His power and rank do not even affected by my doings. It only affects me here in this world and the hereafter. But on the other hand, I believe that god is merciful and gracious. He pardoned me so many times when I forgot about him. He does not even take my eyes back when I see obscene things and does not amputate my leg when I walk towards the evil paths. I can feel that He guides me through my life. I always have this uncanny feeling towards others who forgot about Him. I do not know why but I feel pity for them and I hope that He will give hidayah to those who have astrayed far from the righteous way. I pray for them and may god listen to me this time too. Forgive me for I have sinned a lot and I always try to do my best but sometimes my weak heart got disturbed by the devil’s whisper. YOU know best!!
**I have decided to sponsor a child today. What is the purpose of me being happy here when other people on the oether side of the world is suffering.
GOD decides everything that happens in my life. I do not know how to describe my belief in Him right now. Definitely I believe in the power of god as I have heard, read and even witnessed it myself. I keep telling my self that when something befalls unto my life may it be a bitter or a pleasant one, there is always a reason behind it. Why do I wake up a little later this morning that usual and why I decided to wear a dark green long sleeve shirt to office today other than my usual short sleeve. Even the minute details that I do in life have a purpose. I may not see the purpose of it now, may not notice it and may not even realise why I did it. God has arranged everything. Sometimes I wonder why don’t (if god has arranged everything!) we just let my life flow as it is. Just let the wind carry me to where I belong according to god’s discretion. Therefore, I do not have to bother to go against my needs, feelings and beliefs. Then I realise that yes He decides everything but I have to inspire it myself. Whereby, I have to ponder upon my existence. Why am I being brought to this world and why am I working in Perth and not back home. Ultimately, I realise that whatever happen in my life was inspired or planned by me but decided by Him. His power and rank do not even affected by my doings. It only affects me here in this world and the hereafter. But on the other hand, I believe that god is merciful and gracious. He pardoned me so many times when I forgot about him. He does not even take my eyes back when I see obscene things and does not amputate my leg when I walk towards the evil paths. I can feel that He guides me through my life. I always have this uncanny feeling towards others who forgot about Him. I do not know why but I feel pity for them and I hope that He will give hidayah to those who have astrayed far from the righteous way. I pray for them and may god listen to me this time too. Forgive me for I have sinned a lot and I always try to do my best but sometimes my weak heart got disturbed by the devil’s whisper. YOU know best!!
**I have decided to sponsor a child today. What is the purpose of me being happy here when other people on the oether side of the world is suffering.
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
Letting Go
Sooner or later, everyone you know will disappoint you in some way. They'll say something or fail to say something that will hurt you. And they'll do something or fail to do something that will anger you. It's inevitable. Unfortunately, you make things worse when you stew over someone's words and deeds. When you dwell on a rude remark or an insensitive action made by another person, you're headed for deeper problems. In fact, the more you dwell on these things, the more bitter you'll get.
You'll find your joy, peace and happiness slipping away. And you'll find your productivity slowing down as you find more and more time thinking about the slight or telling others about it. Eventually, if you don't stop doing it, you'll even get sick. So what should you do the next time someone betrays you? TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR FEELINGS. Even though the other person may be at fault, even though the other person wronged you, you are still responsible for your own feelings. In other words,other people do not "cause" your feelings. You choose them. For example,two different people could be told that their suggestions made at the staff meeting were stupid and idiotic." One person may "choose" to feel so hurt that he never speaks up at any other meeting again. The other person may "choose" to feel sorry for the critic, sorry that the critic couldn't see the wisdom and necessity of her suggestions. As long as you blame other people for your feelings, as long as you believe other people caused your feelings, you're stuck. You're a helpless victim. But if you recognize the fact that you choose your feelings and you are responsible
for your feelings, there's hope. You can take some time to think about your feelings. And you can decide what is the best thing to say or do.
Then, you've got to learn to WALK AWAY FROM DISAPPOINTMENT. It's difficult to do, but it's possible. The famous 19th century Scottish historian,Thomas Carlyle,proved that. After working on his multi-volume set of books on "The French Revolution" for six years, Carlyle completed the manuscript and took volume one to his friend John Stuart Mill. He asked Mill to read it. Five days later, Mill's maid accidentally threw the manuscript into the fire. In agony, Mill went to Carlyle's house to tell him that his work had been destroyed. Carlyle did not flinch. With a smile, he said, "That's all right, Mill. These things happen. It is a part of life. I will start over. I can remember most of it, I am sure. Don't worry. It's all here in my mind. Go, my friend! Do not feel bad."
As Mill left, Carlyle watched him from the window. Carlyle turned to his wife and said, "I did not want him to see how crushed I am by this misfortune." And with a heavy sigh, he added, "Well the manuscript is gone, so I had better start writing again." Carlyle finally completed the work, which ranks as one of the great classics of all time. He had learned to walk away from is disappointment. After all, what could Carlyle have done about his burnt manuscript?
Nothing. Nothing would have resurrected the manuscript. All Carlyle could do was to get bitter or get started. And what can you do about anything once it is over? Not much. You can try to correct it if it is possible, or you can walk away from it if it isn't. Those are your only two choices. Sometimes you've just got to shake it off and step up. It's like the farmer who had an old mule who fell into a deep dry well. As he assessed the situation, he knew it would be difficult, if not impossible,to lift the heavy mule out of the deep well. So the farmer decided to
bury the mule in the well. After all, the mule was old and the well was dry, so he could solve two problems at once. He could put the old mule out of his misery and have his well filled. The farmer asked his neighbours to help him with the shovelling. To work they went. As they threw shovel-full of dirt after shovel-full of dirt on the mule's back, the mule became frightened. Then all of a sudden an idea came to the mule. Each time they would throw a shovel-full of dirt on his back, he would shake it off and step up. Shovel-full after shovel-full, the mule would shake it off and step up. In not too long a time, the exhausted and dirty mule stepped over the top of the well and through the crowd.That's the same approach we all need to take. We need to shake it off and step up.
Finally, you need to FORGIVE. It's difficult, especially when the other person doesn't deserve your forgiveness or doesn't even seek it. It's difficult when the other person is clearly in the wrong. Part of the difficulty comes from a common is understanding of forgiveness.Forgiveness doesn't mean that the other person's behaviour is okay. And forgiveness doesn't mean that the other person is off the
hook. He's still responsible for his misbehaviour. Forgiveness is about letting
yourself off the emotional hook. It's about releasing your negative emotions, attitudes, and behaviours. It's about letting go of the past so you can go forward to the future. Everyone in your life, everyone on and off the job is going to disappoint you. If you know how to respond to those situations, you'll be way ahead of most people. You'll be able to live above and beyond your circumstances.
Dr. Alan Zimmerman
**Something that has been sitting in my inbox for 2 years and could not be bothered to read it until today.
You'll find your joy, peace and happiness slipping away. And you'll find your productivity slowing down as you find more and more time thinking about the slight or telling others about it. Eventually, if you don't stop doing it, you'll even get sick. So what should you do the next time someone betrays you? TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR FEELINGS. Even though the other person may be at fault, even though the other person wronged you, you are still responsible for your own feelings. In other words,other people do not "cause" your feelings. You choose them. For example,two different people could be told that their suggestions made at the staff meeting were stupid and idiotic." One person may "choose" to feel so hurt that he never speaks up at any other meeting again. The other person may "choose" to feel sorry for the critic, sorry that the critic couldn't see the wisdom and necessity of her suggestions. As long as you blame other people for your feelings, as long as you believe other people caused your feelings, you're stuck. You're a helpless victim. But if you recognize the fact that you choose your feelings and you are responsible
for your feelings, there's hope. You can take some time to think about your feelings. And you can decide what is the best thing to say or do.
Then, you've got to learn to WALK AWAY FROM DISAPPOINTMENT. It's difficult to do, but it's possible. The famous 19th century Scottish historian,Thomas Carlyle,proved that. After working on his multi-volume set of books on "The French Revolution" for six years, Carlyle completed the manuscript and took volume one to his friend John Stuart Mill. He asked Mill to read it. Five days later, Mill's maid accidentally threw the manuscript into the fire. In agony, Mill went to Carlyle's house to tell him that his work had been destroyed. Carlyle did not flinch. With a smile, he said, "That's all right, Mill. These things happen. It is a part of life. I will start over. I can remember most of it, I am sure. Don't worry. It's all here in my mind. Go, my friend! Do not feel bad."
As Mill left, Carlyle watched him from the window. Carlyle turned to his wife and said, "I did not want him to see how crushed I am by this misfortune." And with a heavy sigh, he added, "Well the manuscript is gone, so I had better start writing again." Carlyle finally completed the work, which ranks as one of the great classics of all time. He had learned to walk away from is disappointment. After all, what could Carlyle have done about his burnt manuscript?
Nothing. Nothing would have resurrected the manuscript. All Carlyle could do was to get bitter or get started. And what can you do about anything once it is over? Not much. You can try to correct it if it is possible, or you can walk away from it if it isn't. Those are your only two choices. Sometimes you've just got to shake it off and step up. It's like the farmer who had an old mule who fell into a deep dry well. As he assessed the situation, he knew it would be difficult, if not impossible,to lift the heavy mule out of the deep well. So the farmer decided to
bury the mule in the well. After all, the mule was old and the well was dry, so he could solve two problems at once. He could put the old mule out of his misery and have his well filled. The farmer asked his neighbours to help him with the shovelling. To work they went. As they threw shovel-full of dirt after shovel-full of dirt on the mule's back, the mule became frightened. Then all of a sudden an idea came to the mule. Each time they would throw a shovel-full of dirt on his back, he would shake it off and step up. Shovel-full after shovel-full, the mule would shake it off and step up. In not too long a time, the exhausted and dirty mule stepped over the top of the well and through the crowd.That's the same approach we all need to take. We need to shake it off and step up.
Finally, you need to FORGIVE. It's difficult, especially when the other person doesn't deserve your forgiveness or doesn't even seek it. It's difficult when the other person is clearly in the wrong. Part of the difficulty comes from a common is understanding of forgiveness.Forgiveness doesn't mean that the other person's behaviour is okay. And forgiveness doesn't mean that the other person is off the
hook. He's still responsible for his misbehaviour. Forgiveness is about letting
yourself off the emotional hook. It's about releasing your negative emotions, attitudes, and behaviours. It's about letting go of the past so you can go forward to the future. Everyone in your life, everyone on and off the job is going to disappoint you. If you know how to respond to those situations, you'll be way ahead of most people. You'll be able to live above and beyond your circumstances.
Dr. Alan Zimmerman
**Something that has been sitting in my inbox for 2 years and could not be bothered to read it until today.
Sunday, February 26, 2006
Living a life in Perth
Hmm…been thinking to write here for quite sometimes already. Just got back from a month of holiday in Malaysia and now is my third week working at INTEC Engineering. These three weeks I get paid for doing nothing. Absolutely nothing! I can’t believe they pay me just to stare at the screen and chatting with my friends. They wanted me to learn something but the things that they want me to learn in one week I can do it in a day. All in all, it is a pretty dull day everyday. Am looking forward to working on a real project.
I don’t really feel the transformation from student’s life to a working life. Probably I am still in the early transition time. Life is still the same for me now. Nothing much has changed and I guess I’d feel the same for a very long time. Now that I am no longer a student, I have bigger responsibilities towards family and building my own future. I do not know where will I head from here and frankly speaking I can’t see myself in 10 years time, where will I be and what kind of person I will turn into. I need to grow up and care more about others. Whatever the future may be, I am here to shape it. I have got nothing more to say just to keep my blog updated even though no one knows about it.
I don’t really feel the transformation from student’s life to a working life. Probably I am still in the early transition time. Life is still the same for me now. Nothing much has changed and I guess I’d feel the same for a very long time. Now that I am no longer a student, I have bigger responsibilities towards family and building my own future. I do not know where will I head from here and frankly speaking I can’t see myself in 10 years time, where will I be and what kind of person I will turn into. I need to grow up and care more about others. Whatever the future may be, I am here to shape it. I have got nothing more to say just to keep my blog updated even though no one knows about it.
Saturday, December 24, 2005
The Old Me
What can I say about life now? It is not always the way you want it to be right? Like in my blog tag. But I am grateful with the life, family and friends that god bestowed to be around me. They serve as a pillar of strength for me and hold me up when I feel down. And now, I am back with the old me!! The ME that my friends like not the ME that I have been lately. I am recovering well from the emotion. I really treasure the lesson that I learned within one month of my relationship and I hold no hard feelings to anyone even to her. When God says so, so it will happen! I thank her for the lessons and for being with me even for a short while. I hope that I did bring even a small sparkle of joy to her and only God knows how sincere I am when I am with her. Whatever the thing is now, I take it as something that I can learn from may may God gives me strength to shove in the journey of my life.
Sunday, December 18, 2005
Heals my Heart
I do not feel entirely good today after I called Mom this evening. It always happen that everyime I called her and I am in a happy mood but she is not. That will switch my mood immediately. I called her this evening just to know that she is not feeling very well. My heart is not at ease now. I am just pretending to be me like normal day but deep inside my little soul is crying to be comforted. I just hope that God will grant her speedy recovery. Was it a punishment for me for the things that I have done wrong? I know that I sinned a lot but forgive me for I am trying to be a better person day by day. I am just a normal human being subject to humanly mistakes due to lack of spiritual supplications.
May Allah heals her health
May Allah heals my heart...
May Allah heals her health
May Allah heals my heart...
Saturday, December 17, 2005
Don't act as if you know the world
Sometimes we assume that we know everything in this world making everyone around is wrong. How presumptuos can we be. I hate people who act as if they know the world. They think that they are right all the time irrespective of other people's feelings. I do understand that we human being tends to get emotional at times and will use anyone around us as subjects to lash out words. However, I cannot tolerate people who assume they have enough knowledge to rejects other people's point of view.
We are ever forgetful and sometimes we even forget that we forget. It is helpful to think hard before we say something to not to hurt someone. We do accidental silly mistakes making us susceptible to hurting someone's feelings. We often do not realise how much we have hurt our friends or lover and I say this to myself. I learn to accept poeple (slowly!) the way they are and I begin to see things from different perspectives. It helps sometimes just to make do with what we have around us and savour the essence of it. I believe that God created something for a reason as I mentioned many times in my previous posts. Whatever it is I hope I can accept people they way they are even though they act as though they know everything in this whole bloody wide world!
We are ever forgetful and sometimes we even forget that we forget. It is helpful to think hard before we say something to not to hurt someone. We do accidental silly mistakes making us susceptible to hurting someone's feelings. We often do not realise how much we have hurt our friends or lover and I say this to myself. I learn to accept poeple (slowly!) the way they are and I begin to see things from different perspectives. It helps sometimes just to make do with what we have around us and savour the essence of it. I believe that God created something for a reason as I mentioned many times in my previous posts. Whatever it is I hope I can accept people they way they are even though they act as though they know everything in this whole bloody wide world!
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
10 Things I Hate About You
I hate the way you look at me and the way you cut your hair
I hate the way you message me
I hate it when you stare
I hate your cute little sparkling lips and the way you read my mind
I hate you so much that makes me sick that even makes me rhyme
I hate the way you always right
I hate it when you are shy
I hate it when you make me laugh even worse when you make me cry
I hate it when you are not around and the fact you didn't answer my call
But mostly...
I hate the way I don't hate you
Not even close
Not even a little bit
Not even at all
**How can I hate her when my love transcends my hatred.
I hate the way you message me
I hate it when you stare
I hate your cute little sparkling lips and the way you read my mind
I hate you so much that makes me sick that even makes me rhyme
I hate the way you always right
I hate it when you are shy
I hate it when you make me laugh even worse when you make me cry
I hate it when you are not around and the fact you didn't answer my call
But mostly...
I hate the way I don't hate you
Not even close
Not even a little bit
Not even at all
**How can I hate her when my love transcends my hatred.
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
Laa her more each day
Yesterday she got angry with me for being mean to her. I felt really bad about that.
When I First Saw Her I Was Afraid To Talk To Her,
When I First Talked To Her I Was Afraid To Like Her,
When I First Liked Her I Was Afraid To Love Her,
Now That I Love Her I'm Afraid To Lose Her.
I cannot show her how much I love her. Only time can tell her how much I love her. I do believe that God put me here for her to love. He picked me out among the rest because He knew I'd love her the best.
I am sorry about yesterday sayang.
When I First Saw Her I Was Afraid To Talk To Her,
When I First Talked To Her I Was Afraid To Like Her,
When I First Liked Her I Was Afraid To Love Her,
Now That I Love Her I'm Afraid To Lose Her.
I cannot show her how much I love her. Only time can tell her how much I love her. I do believe that God put me here for her to love. He picked me out among the rest because He knew I'd love her the best.
I am sorry about yesterday sayang.
Saturday, November 19, 2005
Let her be with me
Today I think I have found the one to be;
the love of my life,
the light of my heart,
the apple of my eyes.
I adore her so much.
I love her with all my heart.
She is something that I treasure,
In times of sorrow and pleasure.
I pray she will be mine forever.
the love of my life,
the light of my heart,
the apple of my eyes.
I adore her so much.
I love her with all my heart.
She is something that I treasure,
In times of sorrow and pleasure.
I pray she will be mine forever.
Monday, November 07, 2005
I See, I Wish I Can
In the past Ramadhan, I saw people cried profusely whom I never thought would cry in front of God before. I am wrong again. I felt ashamed for I could not feel the same.
Once again I have witnessed the power of God. All you need to do is ask with a pure heart. He is the All-Mighty.
Once again I have witnessed the power of God. All you need to do is ask with a pure heart. He is the All-Mighty.
Friday, October 07, 2005
Green Green Grass of Home
Suddenly I feel like writing about my home town. I was surfing this website about Taiping and were taken aback for a while by the responses on old Taipingites there talking about their fond memories of the town. I came from a humble and conservative Malay family and was brought up all my life in Taiping. Since I was born, I never really did leave Taiping until I came here to Australia. Was actually offered for a boarding school when I was 12 but Mom and Dad kinda loathful me going there. So I rejected the offer. Now I know that I did not regret upon my decision back then. Boarding school clamps your mind and blocks your horizon. You only mix with the same race (Malay to be precise) and have no chance of widening your social circle. When I think back about it, I am grateful to all my friends in high school that has somehow shaped me personally into what I am today which I think I would not be who I am today if I was a boarding school product. And so I live my life in Taiping again for another 7 years.
My old school mate Raymond (I used to call him papa elephant at school) is a hardcore advertiser of Taiping. He will talk about Taiping wherever he goes and I can say that he is a truly Taipingite. I love the serenity of the Lake Garden and I savour all the profound memories of my schoolling life. I went to St.George for my primary and high school and indeed still a proud Georgian. St. George plays a memorable role in my life and the friends that I made there are indeed friends that you can rely upon. All of them now are scattered all over the world pursuing their own course of life. I cycled to school back then.
I hardly went out of Taiping when I was there but a visit to KL became frequent during my foundation year and that was when I was 18. Perth (a beautifully boring place) resembles a bit like Taiping with not so much of a traffic and the ever beautifiul Swan River remind me of the Lake Garden. Historically, Taiping was high in the list. First Railway Station, an old mining town, first zoo etc. Not so much like JB or Penang but Taiping is a place that you can unwind and let you mind wonder wildly.
My life in Taiping is very much a simple one. My first house was in Jalan Pauh, Assam Kumbang and then we moved to Kamunting. I only spent a month in Kamunting before I left for Australia. Most of my childhood was in Assam Kumbang. Love the neighbours there and my badminton colegues (one of them has passed away, may God bless him). The people there were less complicated than the people here. I never knew my neighbours here. Probably modernization is making us more selfish.
I dunno but I feel that Taiping is the place that where I want to retire and have a wonderful life with wife, sons, grandsons etc. I'd love to see Taiping as it is today and not be devoured by modern society with complex traits of mind that changes the intactness and the beauty of the town.
My old school mate Raymond (I used to call him papa elephant at school) is a hardcore advertiser of Taiping. He will talk about Taiping wherever he goes and I can say that he is a truly Taipingite. I love the serenity of the Lake Garden and I savour all the profound memories of my schoolling life. I went to St.George for my primary and high school and indeed still a proud Georgian. St. George plays a memorable role in my life and the friends that I made there are indeed friends that you can rely upon. All of them now are scattered all over the world pursuing their own course of life. I cycled to school back then.
I hardly went out of Taiping when I was there but a visit to KL became frequent during my foundation year and that was when I was 18. Perth (a beautifully boring place) resembles a bit like Taiping with not so much of a traffic and the ever beautifiul Swan River remind me of the Lake Garden. Historically, Taiping was high in the list. First Railway Station, an old mining town, first zoo etc. Not so much like JB or Penang but Taiping is a place that you can unwind and let you mind wonder wildly.
My life in Taiping is very much a simple one. My first house was in Jalan Pauh, Assam Kumbang and then we moved to Kamunting. I only spent a month in Kamunting before I left for Australia. Most of my childhood was in Assam Kumbang. Love the neighbours there and my badminton colegues (one of them has passed away, may God bless him). The people there were less complicated than the people here. I never knew my neighbours here. Probably modernization is making us more selfish.
I dunno but I feel that Taiping is the place that where I want to retire and have a wonderful life with wife, sons, grandsons etc. I'd love to see Taiping as it is today and not be devoured by modern society with complex traits of mind that changes the intactness and the beauty of the town.
Thursday, October 06, 2005
Repost : My Son Doesn't Understand the World
I came across this post in islamonline.net and feel like blogging it here.
As-salamu `alaykum.
Dear counselors, I have a problem. My son came to me 2 weeks ago and cried and said, "Mum, I don't understand the world. How should I handle the world?" I looked at him and then thought he is only 20 years, he has money, a car, he studies medicine in one of the best universities, has a beautiful and religious wife, has kind parents, is good looking, has many friends, has good health, so what is his problem??? So I asked him what problems does he have, why can't he understand the world. He answered with tears in his eyes, "It is all very complicated, I don't understand the world—evil wins, people who hate me congratulate me on my birthday, which I don't expect, and beloved ones don't congratulate me. Everything is running differently: The good lose and evil wins, etc." So how can I help him? Thank you.
In the name of Allah the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful. May He bestow His peace and blessings on His Messenger Muhammad, his family, his Companions, and all of those who follow them sincerely.
As-salamu `alaykum,
Dear sister, yes, we do live in a world that often seems upside down. Your son is very perceptive, in fact. Given that Allah has blessed him with so much, it is a refreshing sign to see someone who is so concerned with the state of the world. What your son is echoing, in my opinion, is what many people, particularly young people, are feeling today. In many ways it is a very dark time we are living in with so much ignorance, hatred, inequality, oppression, violence, and other things occurring in the world. This is what your son is picking up on and it is, indeed, very difficult to understand. Nevertheless, as Muslims we must always seek understanding in our lives, for that is how we learn about Allah and His way of operating in the world.
First off, your son must understand that good never loses and evil never wins. Of course in this temporary world that may appear to be the case, but in Reality, in the world of Truth, only Allah exists and Allah is good. Evil, according to many erudite scholars and saints of Islam, only exists—is created by Allah—for the purpose of pointing mankind to good, to the all-pervading mercy of Allah. Remember the hadith qudsi: "My mercy overcomes My wrath." According to those such as Jalaludin Rumi, evil only exists to point us human beings back to, and be grateful for the all-pervading mercy of Allah. The following is from my last article on this Web site. It might help to put this in perspective:
Everything is from Him. This was one of the first lessons I learned in Islam prior to my conversion six years ago. It is the peak of tawheed; simple, yet so important and powerful. Everything is from Allah. When we attempt to understand our lives in this way, through the eyes of tawheed, with Allah as the ultimate cause of everything ("Such is Allah, your Lord, the Creator of all things" [Ghafir 40:62]), quite naturally we will seek understanding in our lives. We know Allah creates everything, we know Allah is the primary cause behind everything, and we know that Allah is the Most Merciful and the source of ultimate good. Thus, with everything that occurs in our lives, might we ask “what are we to learn, Lord, and how should we respond to that which You have willed?” From this vantage point, we will naturally yearn to know what Allah wants us to do, which in fact we already have the answer for: to know Him.
If Allah wants us to know Him, does it not make sense that the manifestation of severity and rigor is Allah’s way of calling us back to Him and His all-pervading mercy and goodness? Could it be that the “whip” of severity is the Creator’s way of reminding us of our ultimate purpose here? The Qur’an teaches us that there are three ways to know Allah: through revelation (the Qur’an), through creation, and through the self. …
One of the important roles that hardship plays in life is to facilitate introspection, to help us look toward the inside and better understand our innermost selves and hearts. When we experience tragedy or calamity, often the first thing we do is go inside ourselves, seeking understanding and solace. It is an important soulful activity that must be done in order to fully realize our humanness. …
Part of the self-surrendering to Allah (al-Islam), therefore, must be to accept all of the Names of Allah, and to embrace all of the ways that He chooses to manifest Himself in our lives, including those perceived as severe or harsh. Not being appreciative of the mercy of Allah in our lives and merciful in our interactions with others will inevitably result in the experience of Allah’s wrath. For to be neglectful in our role as the community of the Mercy to All the Worlds (Prophet Muhammad, peace and blessings be upon him) is deserving of a divine wake-up call.
The craziness in the world that your son has picked up on is the result of all these human decisions to live lives in opposition to the Divine Reality and Allah's guidance for mankind. Islam means "peace" in that it is the way of life of unity—as a manifestation of tawheed, or the oneness of Allah. That is why the people of tawheed (i.e., the Muslims) should be the people showing the world how to live in unity and peace. Nevertheless, in too many cases, we are not. We are not exemplifying our way of life to bring peace. Allah says very simply in the Qur'an that He created us different for one reason: so that we can know one another.
"O mankind! We created you from a single (pair) of a male and a female, and made you into nations and tribes, that ye may know each other (not that ye may despise (each other). Verily the most honored of you in the sight of Allah is (he who is) the most righteous of you. And Allah has full knowledge and is well acquainted (with all things)." (Al-Hujurat 49:13)
Yet, we are not. Humanity as a whole is not. Therefore, we are shunning Allah's mercy by turning away from His guidance and we are essentially getting what we have asked for, which is Allah's wrath. What we can do from what we see happening around us is to get involved—even if it's in a simple way like helping a loved one or a neighbor. Allah records all of our good deeds, no matter how seemingly mundane they are.
"And the Book (of Deeds) will be placed (before you); and thou wilt see the sinful in great terror because of what is (recorded) therein; they will say, 'Ah! woe to us! what a Book is this! It leaves out nothing small or great, but takes account thereof!' They will find all that they did, placed before them: And not one will thy Lord treat with injustice." (Al-Kahf 18:49)
The best way to respond to the craziness and negativity that we see around us is to transform it—by doing something good! Bring mercy, peace, love, and understanding to someone—anyone, for that matter.
"The good deed and the evil deed are not alike. Repel the evil deed with one which is better, then lo! he, between whom and thee there was enmity (will become) as though he was a bosom friend." (Fussilat 41:34)
If we all were to focus on these small things, in time, in sha' Allah, we would see things begin to transform for the better. We are all capable of doing good and bringing goodness into the world. We just have to do it. It doesn't have to be earth-shattering change either. Remember what the Messenger of Allah (peace and blessings be upon him) told us about the importance of small deeds:
`A'ishah (may Allah be pleased with her) reported: The Messenger of Allah (may peace be upon him) did not observe fast in any month of the year more than in the month of Sha`ban, and used to say, "Do as many deeds as you are capable of doing, for Allah will not become weary (of giving you reward), but you would be tired (of doing good deeds)." And he also said, "The deed liked most by Allah is one to which the doer adheres constantly even if it is small." (Muslim 6, #2582)
Narrated Abu Hurairah: The Prophet (peace be upon him) said, "A man never did a good deed but removed a thorny branch from the road; it was either in the tree and someone cut it and threw it on the road, or it was lying in it, he removed it. Allah accepted this good deed of his and brought him intoParadise." (Abu Dawud 41, #5225)
I hope this helps your son in some small way.
Source: www.islamonline.net
As-salamu `alaykum.
Dear counselors, I have a problem. My son came to me 2 weeks ago and cried and said, "Mum, I don't understand the world. How should I handle the world?" I looked at him and then thought he is only 20 years, he has money, a car, he studies medicine in one of the best universities, has a beautiful and religious wife, has kind parents, is good looking, has many friends, has good health, so what is his problem??? So I asked him what problems does he have, why can't he understand the world. He answered with tears in his eyes, "It is all very complicated, I don't understand the world—evil wins, people who hate me congratulate me on my birthday, which I don't expect, and beloved ones don't congratulate me. Everything is running differently: The good lose and evil wins, etc." So how can I help him? Thank you.
In the name of Allah the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful. May He bestow His peace and blessings on His Messenger Muhammad, his family, his Companions, and all of those who follow them sincerely.
As-salamu `alaykum,
Dear sister, yes, we do live in a world that often seems upside down. Your son is very perceptive, in fact. Given that Allah has blessed him with so much, it is a refreshing sign to see someone who is so concerned with the state of the world. What your son is echoing, in my opinion, is what many people, particularly young people, are feeling today. In many ways it is a very dark time we are living in with so much ignorance, hatred, inequality, oppression, violence, and other things occurring in the world. This is what your son is picking up on and it is, indeed, very difficult to understand. Nevertheless, as Muslims we must always seek understanding in our lives, for that is how we learn about Allah and His way of operating in the world.
First off, your son must understand that good never loses and evil never wins. Of course in this temporary world that may appear to be the case, but in Reality, in the world of Truth, only Allah exists and Allah is good. Evil, according to many erudite scholars and saints of Islam, only exists—is created by Allah—for the purpose of pointing mankind to good, to the all-pervading mercy of Allah. Remember the hadith qudsi: "My mercy overcomes My wrath." According to those such as Jalaludin Rumi, evil only exists to point us human beings back to, and be grateful for the all-pervading mercy of Allah. The following is from my last article on this Web site. It might help to put this in perspective:
Everything is from Him. This was one of the first lessons I learned in Islam prior to my conversion six years ago. It is the peak of tawheed; simple, yet so important and powerful. Everything is from Allah. When we attempt to understand our lives in this way, through the eyes of tawheed, with Allah as the ultimate cause of everything ("Such is Allah, your Lord, the Creator of all things" [Ghafir 40:62]), quite naturally we will seek understanding in our lives. We know Allah creates everything, we know Allah is the primary cause behind everything, and we know that Allah is the Most Merciful and the source of ultimate good. Thus, with everything that occurs in our lives, might we ask “what are we to learn, Lord, and how should we respond to that which You have willed?” From this vantage point, we will naturally yearn to know what Allah wants us to do, which in fact we already have the answer for: to know Him.
If Allah wants us to know Him, does it not make sense that the manifestation of severity and rigor is Allah’s way of calling us back to Him and His all-pervading mercy and goodness? Could it be that the “whip” of severity is the Creator’s way of reminding us of our ultimate purpose here? The Qur’an teaches us that there are three ways to know Allah: through revelation (the Qur’an), through creation, and through the self. …
One of the important roles that hardship plays in life is to facilitate introspection, to help us look toward the inside and better understand our innermost selves and hearts. When we experience tragedy or calamity, often the first thing we do is go inside ourselves, seeking understanding and solace. It is an important soulful activity that must be done in order to fully realize our humanness. …
Part of the self-surrendering to Allah (al-Islam), therefore, must be to accept all of the Names of Allah, and to embrace all of the ways that He chooses to manifest Himself in our lives, including those perceived as severe or harsh. Not being appreciative of the mercy of Allah in our lives and merciful in our interactions with others will inevitably result in the experience of Allah’s wrath. For to be neglectful in our role as the community of the Mercy to All the Worlds (Prophet Muhammad, peace and blessings be upon him) is deserving of a divine wake-up call.
The craziness in the world that your son has picked up on is the result of all these human decisions to live lives in opposition to the Divine Reality and Allah's guidance for mankind. Islam means "peace" in that it is the way of life of unity—as a manifestation of tawheed, or the oneness of Allah. That is why the people of tawheed (i.e., the Muslims) should be the people showing the world how to live in unity and peace. Nevertheless, in too many cases, we are not. We are not exemplifying our way of life to bring peace. Allah says very simply in the Qur'an that He created us different for one reason: so that we can know one another.
"O mankind! We created you from a single (pair) of a male and a female, and made you into nations and tribes, that ye may know each other (not that ye may despise (each other). Verily the most honored of you in the sight of Allah is (he who is) the most righteous of you. And Allah has full knowledge and is well acquainted (with all things)." (Al-Hujurat 49:13)
Yet, we are not. Humanity as a whole is not. Therefore, we are shunning Allah's mercy by turning away from His guidance and we are essentially getting what we have asked for, which is Allah's wrath. What we can do from what we see happening around us is to get involved—even if it's in a simple way like helping a loved one or a neighbor. Allah records all of our good deeds, no matter how seemingly mundane they are.
"And the Book (of Deeds) will be placed (before you); and thou wilt see the sinful in great terror because of what is (recorded) therein; they will say, 'Ah! woe to us! what a Book is this! It leaves out nothing small or great, but takes account thereof!' They will find all that they did, placed before them: And not one will thy Lord treat with injustice." (Al-Kahf 18:49)
The best way to respond to the craziness and negativity that we see around us is to transform it—by doing something good! Bring mercy, peace, love, and understanding to someone—anyone, for that matter.
"The good deed and the evil deed are not alike. Repel the evil deed with one which is better, then lo! he, between whom and thee there was enmity (will become) as though he was a bosom friend." (Fussilat 41:34)
If we all were to focus on these small things, in time, in sha' Allah, we would see things begin to transform for the better. We are all capable of doing good and bringing goodness into the world. We just have to do it. It doesn't have to be earth-shattering change either. Remember what the Messenger of Allah (peace and blessings be upon him) told us about the importance of small deeds:
`A'ishah (may Allah be pleased with her) reported: The Messenger of Allah (may peace be upon him) did not observe fast in any month of the year more than in the month of Sha`ban, and used to say, "Do as many deeds as you are capable of doing, for Allah will not become weary (of giving you reward), but you would be tired (of doing good deeds)." And he also said, "The deed liked most by Allah is one to which the doer adheres constantly even if it is small." (Muslim 6, #2582)
Narrated Abu Hurairah: The Prophet (peace be upon him) said, "A man never did a good deed but removed a thorny branch from the road; it was either in the tree and someone cut it and threw it on the road, or it was lying in it, he removed it. Allah accepted this good deed of his and brought him intoParadise." (Abu Dawud 41, #5225)
I hope this helps your son in some small way.
Source: www.islamonline.net
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
Have I Told You Lately
I am 'engaging' in a Rod Stewart's song Have I told You Lately the moment I wrote this. Actually I do not have a specific topic for this post. It is just this uncanny feeling somewhere from up above that prompted me to write something tonight. Tomorrow is the first day of fasting ad I just got back from Tarawih. I hope this Ramadhan will bring something different in me and wish it can be more fruitful to me than my last Ramadhan. I think I can appreciate the blessed month better here in Perth than when I was in Malaysia. I don't why. I always think that we take thing for granted too much regarding Islamic practise in an Islamic country (so-called!!)than when we are abroad. We do things beacuse other people do it and we do it to not feel isolated from others. That was my observation in Malaysia. Living in an Islamic environment somehow has engaged our mind to just follow the norm of the place. I do not know if it is good or bad but I'd rather do things by knowing why I am doing it. Not just because others do it. That was my hypothesis and yet to be proven. Any sociologists? That feelings strengthen my determination to stay here coz I feel I am more sincere in what I do here.
Well that was a bit on my thought of this blessed month. It has been lingering in my mind for some time and now only I feel to pen it down. I have finished all my presentations and thank god it all went well. Now I am concentrating on my thesis write-up and kind of sick of looking at the same thing over and over again. I suffered from this very bad prolonged cough for quite sometimes already. I dunno if it is an early indication for something serious. Hope not.
Still waiting for someone to knock on my empty heart right now. Loneliness is no longer something that I mourn about. Kinda got use to it but I cannot pretend for long for my heart knows what it needed. The time will come when the time will come hey! And know you know it when you know it! BUT you will never know it should you never try. I will let my heart decide with the guidance from up above. Time will tell everything.
Have I told you lately that I love you
Have I told you there’s no one else above you
Fill my heart with gladness
Take away all my sadness
Ease my troubles that’s what you do
For the morning sun in all it’s glory
Greets the day with hope and comfort too
You fill my life with laughter
And somehow you make it better
Ease my troubles that’s what you do
There’s a love that’s divine
And it’s yours and it’s mine like the sun
And at the end of the day
We should give thanks and pray
To the one, to the one
Have I told you lately that I love you
Have I told you there’s no one else above you
Fill my heart with gladness
Take away all my sadness
Ease my troubles that’s what you do
There’s a love that’s divine
And it’s yours and it’s mine like the sun
And at the end of the day
We should give thanks and pray
To the one, to the one
And have I told you lately that I love you
Have I told you there’s no one else above you
You fill my heart with gladness
Take away my sadness
Ease my troubles that’s what you do
Take away all my sadness
Fill my life with gladness
Ease my troubles that’s what you do
Take away all my sadness
Fill my life with gladness
Ease my troubles that’s what you do
**The first picture above was taken by Harris during his honey moon in Maldives.
Well that was a bit on my thought of this blessed month. It has been lingering in my mind for some time and now only I feel to pen it down. I have finished all my presentations and thank god it all went well. Now I am concentrating on my thesis write-up and kind of sick of looking at the same thing over and over again. I suffered from this very bad prolonged cough for quite sometimes already. I dunno if it is an early indication for something serious. Hope not.
Still waiting for someone to knock on my empty heart right now. Loneliness is no longer something that I mourn about. Kinda got use to it but I cannot pretend for long for my heart knows what it needed. The time will come when the time will come hey! And know you know it when you know it! BUT you will never know it should you never try. I will let my heart decide with the guidance from up above. Time will tell everything.
Have I told you lately that I love you
Have I told you there’s no one else above you
Fill my heart with gladness
Take away all my sadness
Ease my troubles that’s what you do
For the morning sun in all it’s glory
Greets the day with hope and comfort too
You fill my life with laughter
And somehow you make it better
Ease my troubles that’s what you do
There’s a love that’s divine
And it’s yours and it’s mine like the sun
And at the end of the day
We should give thanks and pray
To the one, to the one
Have I told you lately that I love you
Have I told you there’s no one else above you
Fill my heart with gladness
Take away all my sadness
Ease my troubles that’s what you do
There’s a love that’s divine
And it’s yours and it’s mine like the sun
And at the end of the day
We should give thanks and pray
To the one, to the one
And have I told you lately that I love you
Have I told you there’s no one else above you
You fill my heart with gladness
Take away my sadness
Ease my troubles that’s what you do
Take away all my sadness
Fill my life with gladness
Ease my troubles that’s what you do
Take away all my sadness
Fill my life with gladness
Ease my troubles that’s what you do
**The first picture above was taken by Harris during his honey moon in Maldives.
Thursday, September 29, 2005
I Tell You What
In my previous post mentioned that I have to present in the CEED Semiar yesterday. Worth that I write something about it. Unfortunately I was the first speaker to break the ice on that day. The presentation went quite well I think except that I kinda lost of words sometimes during the talk. Stumble here and there a bit. I talked in frot of lecturers and industry people. I really do not feel like talking in front of year 11 students (like Laurence said). After the talk, the questiones raised by the people indicated that there are some of them who has deep knowledge in the area. Jorg Imberger was the first to ask me questions. He was the professor in Fluid Mechanics and Head of Department in CWR. He asked me 3 questions which I think that I answered reasonably well. It was just the way he asked the questions. He walked out of the room after the second speaker present. There were also several other questions and suggestions. It was all industrial related questions and none concern with academics. I can understand that and I learned a lot from that.
We had a real formal dinner at the newly-built Uni Club after the whole 12 presenters finished with their research talk. Uni Club is a grand place to have a function. I was quite fortunate to have the same table with Prof. Alan Robson the Vice Chancellor of UWA. Very friendly and approachable character. This is one thing that I like about western culture, there are less sense of formality. Alan was the number one person in charge of the whole university and he still got the same treatment as the others. Well I guess in Malaysia there will be people ushering him and the seat will be reserved for him. When Alan came all the seat were occupied and Laurence had to take extra seat for him and he was really cool about that. Kamy Cheng was in the same table with us. I really feel a pleasure to have him there what more after knowing him wonderful character. He promised to sort out John's problem regarding his storage in Shenton Park that needs $5000 and Kamy said that you can be sure about that. Malaysian culture is lavished with formalities. I do not know if it is good or not but generally speaking in prefer it here. They said the food there was marvellous but since I suffered from sore throat I did not eat much. The red wine was one of the finest ever made.
I guess that they are still a lot of things that I need to learn here. That makes me want to stay here longer. I also had a meeting with Aziz when I was in Sydney and he persisted me to return back. I have not decided yet.
**Making another presentation tomorrow. Tired.
We had a real formal dinner at the newly-built Uni Club after the whole 12 presenters finished with their research talk. Uni Club is a grand place to have a function. I was quite fortunate to have the same table with Prof. Alan Robson the Vice Chancellor of UWA. Very friendly and approachable character. This is one thing that I like about western culture, there are less sense of formality. Alan was the number one person in charge of the whole university and he still got the same treatment as the others. Well I guess in Malaysia there will be people ushering him and the seat will be reserved for him. When Alan came all the seat were occupied and Laurence had to take extra seat for him and he was really cool about that. Kamy Cheng was in the same table with us. I really feel a pleasure to have him there what more after knowing him wonderful character. He promised to sort out John's problem regarding his storage in Shenton Park that needs $5000 and Kamy said that you can be sure about that. Malaysian culture is lavished with formalities. I do not know if it is good or not but generally speaking in prefer it here. They said the food there was marvellous but since I suffered from sore throat I did not eat much. The red wine was one of the finest ever made.
I guess that they are still a lot of things that I need to learn here. That makes me want to stay here longer. I also had a meeting with Aziz when I was in Sydney and he persisted me to return back. I have not decided yet.
**Making another presentation tomorrow. Tired.
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
Sydney 2005
I just touched down Perth at 10am just now from Sydney for MASCA Conference, took a quick nap and then rushed to uni for a CEED Seminar. It's 10.45 pm now and I just got back from the seminar. What a busy day.
I was in Melbourne last year for NCG as well and went again this year. Things are much better in terms of the organisation of the whole events. The AGM was as usual the platform for them to fight over things that they did not agree with. As the representative for WA delegates, I took a neutral stand for everything. There is really no point of agreeing or not agreeing when you know that that will not solve the matter. Moreover they fight over stupid trivial matter. But I'd say that in terms of the whole event, it was a success to be able to get together all the states from all over Australia. Do not talk about integration first, being able to get together is already a great achievement. I applaud them for that. For me personally the idea of going there is just to establish contacts for MASCA WA and build a strong interstates connection for WA. Well, at least that was what I hope. I will leave it to the next committee to extend my efforts and I think I have worked a lot to get MASCA WA to this stage. People might not see it but here in my page(where I have been most sincere with) I think I have done something for MASCA WA. It does not really matter if they do not recognise my effort. It was just a sincere help anyway. I do hope that whoever that will take over the club next year will make something different for it. I made some new friends there.
I did spent sometimes to unwind in Sydney. Another quick holiday there. Spent most of my time with Ian to bring him around Sydney as it was his first time. Opera House always appeals me no matter how many times I have visited it. It has been a common habit of mine lately to visit any Hard Rock Cafe when there is one and bought a t-shirt there.My new hobby! Ian is a nice guy and has the same thinking as mine I suppose. It is not that common that I found someone who shares the same opinion. People say that I am a little weirder than other people. Well I do mix around but I still hold my opinion on certain things without having them to tell me what to say. They kept pestering me to disagree with the motion brought up during the AGM but I still stood my ground. They thought that I was afraid of saying no.
The last day of the conference a few of us went for karaoke for 1.5 hours. The karaoke in Sydney is ridiculously cheap compared to here due to the competition there I suppose. It was a real fun that I did not have enough for the night. Want more of it. I will make sure that everytime I pay a visit to Sydney, karaoke is a must! Was also quite surprise to see the Malay guys in Sydney took a beer in the name to socialise. I kinda did not expect some of them to do that. May be not to trust anyone is a lesson that I can say I learned. I told MSD director about this and he was just smiling and told me he knows about this. Any action, sir?
** I saw the same guy when I was in Melbourne that I mention in my post in Sydney near paddy's this time. Still persisting on his mission.
I was in Melbourne last year for NCG as well and went again this year. Things are much better in terms of the organisation of the whole events. The AGM was as usual the platform for them to fight over things that they did not agree with. As the representative for WA delegates, I took a neutral stand for everything. There is really no point of agreeing or not agreeing when you know that that will not solve the matter. Moreover they fight over stupid trivial matter. But I'd say that in terms of the whole event, it was a success to be able to get together all the states from all over Australia. Do not talk about integration first, being able to get together is already a great achievement. I applaud them for that. For me personally the idea of going there is just to establish contacts for MASCA WA and build a strong interstates connection for WA. Well, at least that was what I hope. I will leave it to the next committee to extend my efforts and I think I have worked a lot to get MASCA WA to this stage. People might not see it but here in my page(where I have been most sincere with) I think I have done something for MASCA WA. It does not really matter if they do not recognise my effort. It was just a sincere help anyway. I do hope that whoever that will take over the club next year will make something different for it. I made some new friends there.
I did spent sometimes to unwind in Sydney. Another quick holiday there. Spent most of my time with Ian to bring him around Sydney as it was his first time. Opera House always appeals me no matter how many times I have visited it. It has been a common habit of mine lately to visit any Hard Rock Cafe when there is one and bought a t-shirt there.My new hobby! Ian is a nice guy and has the same thinking as mine I suppose. It is not that common that I found someone who shares the same opinion. People say that I am a little weirder than other people. Well I do mix around but I still hold my opinion on certain things without having them to tell me what to say. They kept pestering me to disagree with the motion brought up during the AGM but I still stood my ground. They thought that I was afraid of saying no.
The last day of the conference a few of us went for karaoke for 1.5 hours. The karaoke in Sydney is ridiculously cheap compared to here due to the competition there I suppose. It was a real fun that I did not have enough for the night. Want more of it. I will make sure that everytime I pay a visit to Sydney, karaoke is a must! Was also quite surprise to see the Malay guys in Sydney took a beer in the name to socialise. I kinda did not expect some of them to do that. May be not to trust anyone is a lesson that I can say I learned. I told MSD director about this and he was just smiling and told me he knows about this. Any action, sir?
** I saw the same guy when I was in Melbourne that I mention in my post in Sydney near paddy's this time. Still persisting on his mission.
Friday, September 23, 2005
You talk, I laugh
I was having my CEED presentation rehearsal yesterday for the CEED Seminar Dinner. As soon as I finished, those people gave a blurry faces to me. Someone said that she has no idea what I am talking about and someone else said that he was totally confused. Well, those are the non-technical non-engineering people from Biology and Archaeology school. Laurence came down from up the lecture theatre and told me to reduce the amount of technicalities in my presentation and focus on why does it matter to conduct such research. I did learn something yesterday on some skills to communicate with your audience. Know your audience and treat them as if they are year 11 students which I think is kinda make sense. The whole idea or presentation is to communicate and convey the message to the people who has a diferent background and making them understand your talk. My talk yesterday was so academic that it could go for an Offshore Technology Conference. Well, I learn on how to get across your technical ideas in a non-technical way but still manage to convey what you are trying to communicate.
I was watching Russel Peters lately and was laughing my heart out. He made a good stand up comedian. A real good one. One thing I like about stand up comedian is how they say it. The thing we say would not be as funny as when they say it. They have this great ability of communication. Sometiems it is just some simple stuff like,"Hey, whatever makes you happy man" which sounds mundane to me but how he put it into context and use the right intonation just making you laugh from ear to ear.
**Off for Sydney 2005 at 4.30pm today.
I was watching Russel Peters lately and was laughing my heart out. He made a good stand up comedian. A real good one. One thing I like about stand up comedian is how they say it. The thing we say would not be as funny as when they say it. They have this great ability of communication. Sometiems it is just some simple stuff like,"Hey, whatever makes you happy man" which sounds mundane to me but how he put it into context and use the right intonation just making you laugh from ear to ear.
**Off for Sydney 2005 at 4.30pm today.
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